hmm, not a bad weekend this week, but nontheless, its still god damned short.. just 10 hrs out of base, waking up at 1030 and back at 9. went back to cottesloe beach again, and this time there's more pple there, but the weather wasnt really hot so i guess the beach wasnt exactly packed, yet its still quite alright.. plus there's some art exhibits on the beach.. quite cool.. but din haf the time to look at all of em.. just slacked ard burning my skin and hitting a volleyball ard, and just smashing ourselves at the waves, after that we headed back to Perth and had a korean meal.. quite nice actually.. but i cant really rem the name of the food we've ordered.. before that our lunch was in Perth as well.. some Penang restaurant.. had laksa and ice kachang.. shit i miss Singapore food man..
its off to flying again.. another full week of stress and what not, i seriously HATE studying now.. yet i'd just love to jump back to uni to study.. but i guess its not possible anymore.. most probably i'll just hang ard in RSAF until like 12 yrs later, and hopefully go on to SIA for the rest of my life.. or i'd just stay in RSAF and rot.. university doesnt seem remotely close to my plans currently..
i'm missing my friends again, havent talked to them since CNY i tink, and i cant even rem when was the last time i called them.. dun even tink it was CNY.. Arthur and Huiren's ORD-ing nxt week, and 2 mths later the rest of em's gonna ORD.. while i'm still gonna b here.. and hopefully getting closer to completing my course.. i want to finish this course fast now.. but i guess if the flying really ramps up, i wun b able to handle the amt of studies i need to do.. i'm barely coping with the preparation for flights.. or rather.. i'm like super procrastinating and not getting anything done.. just staring at the flight manuals and enroute supplements, but nothing's getting in, and i dunno wad i'm doing most of the time.. weekdays especially, i just get up in the morning, trying to do wadeva's needed of me in squadron, getting back at night to study, and just repeat it for the next 4 days.. plus any duties that i have to do.. guess i'm losing my life here.. all my yearning for fun, clubbing wif the guys, catching movies, chilling out in town, playing pool/LAN, playing mahjong, hockey, have been suppressed by myself to keep myself from getting depressed, yet i feel that by doing this i'm killing myself slowly, gradually turning dull, and losing interest for anything.. just 3-4 more mths here.. hopefully i can shoulder whatever's left thats coming.. alot more flying, alot more studying, alot more sleepless nights, and alot more days missing my friends and family. even though i've known it before, i just cant help but realise again and again that my social life is perhaps whats keeping me going in my life, and maybe its the only thing i'm living for in my life right now
Snow Patrol - How to Be Dead Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth No you don't know what happened And you never will if You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall Where you've had me for hours Till I'm sure what I want But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way
Please keep your hands down And stop raising your voice It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime So just say yes or no Why can't you shoulder the blame Coz both my shoulders are heavy From the weight of us both You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth You've not heard a single word I have said... Oh, my God
Please take it easy it can't all be my fault I haven't made half the mistakes That you've listed so far Oh baby let me explain something It's all down to drugs At least I remember taking them and not a lot else It seems I've stepped over lines You've drawn again and again But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride
