man, going back to work in another 9 hrs.. sigh, realli wonder sometimes if taking long leave is gd for me.. the more leave i take, the more i wonder y i'm working in the air force, i mean i can just break my arm or some shit and downgrade myself.. haha, but noooooooo, i had to sign on.. sometimes i do feel the pride and satisfaction of making it so far, since pilots r a dying breed.. but hey.. after joining the air force i've realised tat pilots r not gods anyway.. most pple can make it to b pilots, yet they do not want to.. so yah.. a lot of pple get chopped cos they dun wanna b pilots, not tat the training's damn tough.. yeah, its tough lah.. but not until so many pple fail.. my OC told us during a meal tat they noe a lot of pple get chopped cos they dun wanna pass, and its a worrying trend cos they can do nothing to stop it oso.. no proof to charge them or wad.. but hey.. those tat get charged r realli crazy.. i mean paying 300k compensation? shit tats scary man..
anyway, they pay me well n i'm not exactly suffering SO much here.. so yah, not a bad way to spend my life lah.. projected date of departure is STILL not confirmed.. but august it will b.. sigh.. i wish they just gimme a confirmed date lah.. i alreadi wait until quite pek cek alreadi.. lyk still dunno when i'm going.. its alreadi july leh.. fuck.. haven started on my studying/revising all the aircraft systems knowledge all tat, i go there sure DIE lah.. i dunno y, i might wanna get myself killed there.. but i still wanna do my best.. even if the attraction of studying in uni nxt yr is SO OMFG great.. some ego thing i suppose.. sigh.. i wish i asked less of myself.. i could've chao keng-ed my way out of life.. haha
oh shit.. 35 days of leave.. yet no way to clear it in july.. sigh.. at least i'm removing my wisdom tooth on the 14th of july.. shld get another 1-2 days of leave more..
*update
oh yah btw went out wif chek on sat, haven seen him in awhile.. pooled and lan-ed until 12, then fuck show at 1220, ran all the way frm paradiz to cine.. just made it in time.. haha, still got time to take a pee and buy drink.. then yeah.. watched war of the worlds..not bad lah..effects r nice.. n i actually liked the ending, yeah yeah, u all say its abrupt, sudden, but hey.. it makes sense rite? so, not realli abrupt for me.. but makes u wonder ah.. if the aliens invade us.. y the fuck do they not wear breathing suits, and if they haf tis force field ard it.. n can still capture pple.. so it means the forcefield is non-organic in nature lah.. meaning it onli repels non-organic shit.. and so.. crows can fly ard the machines for nuts and the forcefield would still b on wad.. oh yah, plus the worst is the part where the f18's i tink, tat flew lyk super low level across the fields n launched their AIM9s or wadeva at them, the shockwave by the planes would've killed all the pple below when they flew past, lyk just shattered all the bones in the pple, plus no sick pilots alive would fly so low to release their payloads at the aliens tat r so freaking high anyway.. there's no need to fly so low level lor.. lyk 100ft.. wtf. haha wadeva lah.. ,no show's perfect.. gd enof for me
and finally.. going back to work tml SUCKS, i'll most prolly wake up late and cab down again.. shit.. no money lahhhhhhhhhhhh
